the storm came and blew me to bits

O'well the storm came and blew me to bits

i build this home
with cinder and cane
the storm came
and blew me to bits

You know how you have so much to write, so much to craft, limitless inspirations and one song overwrites them. Maybe that is why skilled writers and composers tend to listen only to their works. This makes them unbiased.

I was so pissed just now, I was really overcome by blind anger, I guess in this rat race to affairs of the heart, when you're down and out, you just have to suck it up and take it like a man, take it like you have a pair. I swear, I could have just swung that chair onto the pillar release all my rage but like a true blue implosionaire, I kept it in, suppress it. Sometimes, I think I am just gonna implode.

But I guess, the only thing I can do is be happy. So right now, to wallow in the dirt, I should indulge in some uber-inspiring Damien Rice.

Cheers darlin'
Here's to you and your lover boy
Cheers darlin'
I got years to wait around for you
Cheers darlin'
I've got your wedding bells in my ear
Cheers darlin'
You give me three cigarettes to smoke my tears away

And I die when you mention his name
And I lied, I should have kissed you
When we were running in the rain

What am I darlin'?
A whisper in your ear?
A piece of your cake?
What am I, darlin?
The boy you can fear?
Or your biggest mistake?

Read the signs, believe the truth.

3 hours of sleep, and then I wake, 7am, no alarm no phone call. I guess the problem lies in trying to get to bed. My mind is currently in a whirl right now so much so that I am having a great deal of difficulty getting to bed.

Mtrcyle drvby- gd o wine- 3eb

O'When ever I listen to 3rd Eye Blind songs I get transported back to my emo days/ periods. And especially so, Motorcycle Driveby, God of Wine, The Background, all these songs have gone through significant moments of my life.

Today, at ZY's we did these songs again, and then I start to reflect.

And now at home, I'm just swarming myself with these songs. Its sometimes good to be able to have songs to reflect and remind ourselves of how little and how are all pawns in this massive chest game where we have no control over what is being done and what has to be done. How much you do, how much you slog and how much you work- has no correlation to achievements whatsoever.

I have already based life's little secret with luck and the more of it. People who succeed in whatever they do, its just a matter of luck, 5% hardwork 95% luck. Spoken like a true "give-up". Well, I've not given up for too many times until I've learned a bitter lesson- sometimes it's just better to give up and give in. Why fight when we know the end?

-time to wallow in more 3EB